So I've come to discover, after 7 days straight of up at 6am and to bed by 9pm, that my body won't sleep in past 8am. I woke up to the freighters sounding their boat horns this morning on the river. It was sort of unusual. So I got up and looked out my window, and I couldn't see the tree line in my neighbor across the street's backyard. It's half an hour later now and I can still barely see them, sun blazing in the sky cloaked by fog. I've come to dislike cold cereal in the morning this time of year, so I'm sipping a cup of coffee to warm me back up. This is also another habit I think I picked up from work.

Today, my first and only day off before another 6 day work week, I would like to dedicate to cleaning my room and birthday shopping, also probably cleaning a little bit of the house for company next weekend when we will be throwing a birthday party for my mom and I on the one day off I have from work again next weekend. It's hard to enjoy knowing I'm going to be 28 next week. I feel like the numbers between 25 and 30 are just kind of dreaded. 30 years is a pretty profound marker in one's life to observe what you have accomplished in that amount of time. I now understand the struggle my Uncle Mike has at 40, still job hunting, still dating. Guess ya gotta reach that age to understand it. Being younger I never thought about growing any older than 23. Now you start looking at numbers that you remember celebrating for your parents' birthdays years back. It's a little scary, but not in the "growing old" sense, more in the "god where am I in my life" sort of way. I look forward to it none the less, even though I know it, as well as other holidays this time of year, are going to be short and sweet with very little fanfare. It's just going to be that sort of year this year. I expect it and have peace with it. Next year I'm sure will be different, as all years are. Some are remembered, some kind of just... go by.

This morning I've been thinking about presents I would like, a little self indulgence before the day of errands and chores begins. I found a tea set I like ([link]), and I always need a big flatscreen tv since the one I have actually needs a cable converter box which I'm sure I'll never bother to get. Any Vera Bradley that's Mod Floral Pink I would totally adore, but those are always expensive. It's the one actual name brand thing I'm into. Adele Sessler's Wars of Avenon book that I'm pretty sure isn't in stores. I would like P90X that I can play in a DVD player. And I suppose anything else will come to me as I think more throughout the day. Still need new pants and shirts, my wardrobe is gettin a lil dated since college... ALSO!!! If anyone is feeling GENEROUS! I really miss my Subscribed Account here on DA

I really REALLY want to do some roleplaying on my forum or on any other forum for that matter. Getting someone to post as regularly as I try to has proven a failed expectation. I just really like to write, build relationships between characters, and just have a good time. It's been my favorite pastime these days. So much so that I've started making new OCs again, which I haven't done for a good year or so. So many ppl are so busy it's difficult to keep a thread going anymore. Why is it I seem to have so much time even though I have maybe 4 hrs of time to spend for myself any given day these last 2 weeks? Guess it's just the difference between what ppl enjoy doing in their free time. I like to be on the computer being creative by either writing or drawing or having good conversations with my friends. Others I know don't hang around their computer so much. Makes me sound kinda...unsociable? *shrug* Pretty sure I'm just attracted to talking to friends on here. I almost like it more than phones because I can keep records that I can revisit later, peruse old conversations ya know? Otherwise I don't always remember the things ppl said. This always feels more permanent to me. Course that's just me.

Anyway, my day awaits! Time to get movin and enjoying the day. I have quite a bit of it to spend being up so early ^_^'